I've always aligned with my assigned gender of male. But that hasn't stopped me from fantasizing about being a woman. Like many of us here, I think the female form is just so gods damn beautiful. I want to know what it feels like to be that beautiful. I recently had a dream about getting implants and trying life as a woman. That dream demonstrated to me that I don't identify as female, I really do identify as a man. But I really enjoyed having certain attributes. I enjoyed how it felt to be looked at. In this dream, my wife was supportive of my experimentation. I think she would be in real life too. But I'm not sure if I want to go there yet.
Anyways, to echo what's already been said, YOU ARE NOT WEIRD. Well, then again, I believe weird is a virtue. So maybe you are weird - and so are a bunch of us, and
that's a good thing! BE WEIRD!It never occurred to me before reading this thread to try dressing with silicone forms or water balloons in public before. When I was a teenager, I tried on a bra and stuffed it with water bags at home in private. It was very arousing. The motivation wasn't so much that I wanted to be a woman, more that I wanted to fondle a woman with big boobs. Then, my sister walked in on me once, it was extraordinarily embarrassing. We never mentioned it again. To this day I still wonder if she even remembers it. As I write this, I realize I don't think I ever tried it again after that. Now, nearly three decades later I'm reading this thread and considering it again. I felt pretty ashamed as a teenager, but now that I'm older and wiser and society is older and wiser - we know that gender is fluid... and who gives a frak about gender anyways? Maybe I just want to look hot. My ideal hot.
Some of the products on that Roanyer site look amazing! I'm super curious.
Thank you everyone for sharing.
By the way, slightly off topic, I read a YA novel called Cycler (
https://www.penguinrandomhouse.ca/books/112141/cycler-by-lauren-mclaughlin/9780375892479) a long time ago about girl who turns into a guy for four days a month (an obvious metaphor for her period). It was a great guilty pleasure. I think I'd enjoy a story that is the opposite, a guy who turns into a girl... obviously with rather big boobs.