OK so I'm about two weeks late to finding this out but when I did, I threw up.
I don't often write on here, but I will say this message.
I had a direct connection with Isabella. I had known her for around 3 years starting with becoming fan-model connection later becoming penpal friends over time. We exchanged thousands of messages on Instagram and went through a lot of good discussions, made many memories. During the period of time I knew her, I obviously took in a great liking into her looks, her body, and also her engagement with me. Yes, her boobs are huge, they're actually bigger than how they were perceived on her photos. If I recall correctly, her implants were 1200cc. I had praised her a lot in the DMs (faking being desperate) and had pictures of her for my screensavers from early in to our engagement until today.
What was so great about her is that because I passed a huge boundary getting to know her, becoming her friend etc. I had also gained access to a lot of her BTS/Shoots stuff, and even exchanged photos with her from her shoots. Everything was free because we were actual friends. She understood the effect her body had on me as well, so she sort of played a small game with me in it, where whenever there was a special occasion, she would give me access to some photos, or even sending selfies of herself to 'make my day'. There were some cases where she would even go as far as to sending her some of her favourite photos. Heavy cleavage in a few of them, with some even being topless. Yes, I have seen Topless Bella with her enhanced breasts, even in video form outside of photoshoots. We would also often talk about how she has a lot of connections with somewhere out of the USA (funnily enough, very close to my hometown) and she said that post-covid, one day she will go back there for business and that she would want to meet up with me for a photo or a nice friendly exchange.
My last messages from her were early March 20, so a day or two before she passed. I was going for a checkup myself and she gave me her blessing, wishing me well etc. I also told her afterwards that I would be going off Instagram and that I would not be using Social Media. I sent her a message on Messenger that would end up never delivering, and decided to reinstall Instagram last week to send her a follow up message that I sent her one on Messenger. I received only a 'seen' on IG, (in hindsight it was probably her husband or a P.A on her account) so I got no message back. I was oblivious to the situation since I never followed Trevor, her husband.
She would often tell me whenever I was down and depressed (especially 2020) that I'm young and that I've got time. She told me a lot about how her life was a lot worse than mine was at my age, the fact that she was first married at 17, didn't really have a surname since she was fostercared, and that she was significantly older (35 at the time of messaging). Today, she has no time, she isn't around anymore.
If there is any sort of message I can bring to you all at the end of this, then it is this: Don't waste time, yeah sure, you 'have time', but wasting it isn't going to do you any good. Also, don't fake having cancer, she didn't like that being mentioned in the DMs so I never did, but yeah.
(This might be too sensitive for this forum, so if admins bring it down, I guess let me know?)